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Date: 2023-10-25 10:26 pm (UTC)
mindreader: 𝐩π₯𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐀𝐞. (pic#16394829)
From: [personal profile] mindreader
( the things he's allowed to hear β€” the way in which they play out, in a sense, within his mind's eye... he's not entirely sure what he had expected with this. it's jarring and very brutal in ways he hasn't fully done himself, but it's not enough to make him pull away β€” to label kol the monster that he believes himself to be. how can he, when he's done his own share of murder and ravaging of others?

the brutality of such things read, it's the pain which he can almost feel himself from the other that has him staring to kol β€” to the way he turns away from him and shares his deep grief of knowing far too well what it is like to feel this. to have lived this. to still carry it with you in some capacity even so many years later.

for a moment, silence. he needs it and he feels maybe kol does, too. it's only after a breeze brushes so very gently across a cold, pale cheek, that he looks over then, gaze soft, and reaches out β€” hesitating at first β€” to gently place a hand on kol's shoulder. )


I'm sorry.

( voice soft and yet so very genuine in the empathy he feels for him. )

Date: 2023-10-25 11:03 pm (UTC)
mindreader: 𝐩π₯𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐀𝐞. (pic#16397158)
From: [personal profile] mindreader
( it's strange to hear. you're not alone. you won't be alone. he has his family, he knows and yet... he still feels as if he is at times. alone.

the tears there that had been in kol's eyes are seen, edward unsure with what to do or say that could possibly make it better β€” that could quell such anguish he feels in this moment and still, very much, carries with him. he's not sure β€” he feels as though he should know and yet, all he can do is simply keep his hand there where kol's now rests atop it.

maybe it's the fact that kol understands β€” maybe it's the fact that he still hasn't fed properly. whatever the case, he finds himself leaning in some, eyes still with that softness in them and he says, very genuinely: )


I know. I have you.

Date: 2023-10-26 07:59 pm (UTC)
mindreader: 𝐩π₯𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐀𝐞. (pic#16687153)
From: [personal profile] mindreader
( if breath were something to catch in the back of his throat, it would have with kol being so close to him like this. given the fact that he's a vampire and breath isn't anything he needs, eyes shine despite the black which dulls his usual golden amber; a side effect of not having properly fed.

a moment to drop his gaze, he swallows β€” an awkward huff leaving his lips. )


You're ok... yeah.

Date: 2023-10-26 08:47 pm (UTC)
mindreader: 𝐩π₯𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐀𝐞. (pic#16687161)
From: [personal profile] mindreader
( this is his first kiss with someone like him β€” with someone of the same gender and yet, he doesn't feel the urge to pull away in surprise nor horror. he hasn't let himself feel much of anything for or with anyone so it's all... new to him. in many ways. in many conflicting and curious ways.

a slow blink, he doesn't need to see himself to know how his eyes look. he can feel it in his very bones and the way his body tirelessly aches to be rejuvenated again. face scrunched up, he swallows again, a shake of his head. )


I, uhβ€” I can't feed from you. ( the words are soft. ) I don't know if I can stop.

Date: 2023-10-26 10:11 pm (UTC)
mindreader: 𝐩π₯𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐀𝐞. (pic#16394818)
From: [personal profile] mindreader
( the kiss, sweet as it is for him, is cut short with a huff of laughter that spills from edward's lips to kol's. he pulls back β€” enough to look to him β€” and eyes are still dark in the way they shine as he stares to him. )

You think I worry about you not being able to stop me?

( he knows kol's much older and stronger than him. )

It's how I would think of myself for feeding from you. Especially if I liked it.
Edited Date: 2023-10-26 10:12 pm (UTC)

Date: 2023-10-26 10:28 pm (UTC)
mindreader: 𝐩π₯𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐀𝐞. (pic#16397137)
From: [personal profile] mindreader
( it's a little easier to pick up on kol's thoughts and edward gives a shake of his head. )

I didn't mean you.

( voice tight, he licks over his lips β€” a huff, then looks down. )

I can't... trust myself with something like that.

Date: 2023-10-26 11:00 pm (UTC)
mindreader: 𝐩π₯𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐀𝐞. (pic#16397668)
From: [personal profile] mindreader
( he knows he needs to feed. that the longer he leaves it, the worse it'll become β€” the weaker he'll get and the more likely it'll become to accidentally harm someone. he doesn't often end up that desperate or that weak, but. it's always a thought that nags at him in the back of his head. how it could be.

something inside him twists β€” kol's words drifting on his thoughts and he looks up to the other vampire after a moment. )


What if some part of me wants to break it?

Date: 2023-10-26 11:28 pm (UTC)
mindreader: 𝐩π₯𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐀𝐞. (pic#16394821)
From: [personal profile] mindreader
You think I'd willingly bite someone else?

( it's said softly β€” as a joke mostly because... he has no intention of doing that. of biting someone else. of feeding from them. vampire or not.

gaze lingering there on hands that kol holds, he considers the other's words β€” considers the things inside him and what it is he wants. that alone is always rather complicated for him given the fact that he often feels guilty or wrong for what he wants. truly too hard on himself with what he is and how difficult such a mindset is to shake yourself out of. )


Not here.

( he says then. )

Not so out in the open.

Date: 2023-10-26 11:55 pm (UTC)
mindreader: 𝐩π₯𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐀𝐞. (pic#16394818)
From: [personal profile] mindreader
Not out here.

( again, he shakes his head. )

It's too open.

( even if others aren't around, there's a chance he could take off and edward is so very fast. )

Date: 2023-10-27 11:50 pm (UTC)
mindreader: 𝐩π₯𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐀𝐞. (pic#16642429)
From: [personal profile] mindreader
I want to go there.

( a beat. a lick of his lips. )

To the rented house.

Date: 2023-10-28 12:09 am (UTC)
mindreader: 𝐩π₯𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐀𝐞. (pic#16394820)
From: [personal profile] mindreader
( by the time they arrive at the rental kol has for himself, edward's eyes have darkened a little more. he's not yet at the point of needing to fight off the urge β€” to have lost any self-control. he rarely lets himself get to that point anymore, but. it does make him a little more... antsy.

stepping in, a quick look around, he looks back to kol and if his heart were capable of doing so, he's sure it would be beating as hard as a drum right now. )


Where do you want to do this?

Date: 2023-10-28 12:39 am (UTC)
mindreader: 𝐩π₯𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐀𝐞. (pic#16394835)
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( arms remain at his sides as he follows to the bedroom and he feels some sort of way β€” some sort of anxiety for one reason or another that he tries his best to ignore it. standing there, if he had breath to suck in, he would when those teeth ghost along his neck. taking a moment to swallow, he nods. slow. )

Yeah. I meanβ€” the wrist.

( keep it simple, first. )

I don't want to make a mess.

( get the sheets or kol's clothes all bloody. )

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