Wait. You're in that event? How did you end up in that. Did the government force you? That's... Doesn't your dominant have to fuck you on stage in that?
None, if I had any say. Yet since I clearly did not, no. They did not inform me. Kol, I need to tell you, I haven't done many things. It was not as if I had leisure to go exploring obscure kinks on top of everything else already.
[How could Kol know that Edward had been alive for so long and never been laid. It was one of the first debaucheries that Kol dug himself deep into after turning. Sex and blood, it all went hand in hand in his world. That and magic. He was a horrible person for a very long time, and then he was locked away by his brother.
He learned, he curbed his ways because he had to over time, and he still was far from perfect, but he was trying. Still, Edward puzzled him. Looking over at the extraordinarily handsome man, Kol lifted his brow. ]
Not paired up? You have to be in a pair to have really good sex, then. Can't you just go get yourself laid?
[Rolling over on his side to face Edward, Kol looks over at him and reaches out to lay a hand on his leg where it stretches in front of him. ]
Getting out on your own. That sounds pretty lonely, man.
( a gentle drop of his gaze to that hand, he falls quiet, as he often does, lost in his own thoughts away from the mutterings of so many others that don't belong to him. up here, it's just him and kol. )
I did a lot of things when I became what I am. ( a monster. ) Hunted, stalked, killed.
( they all deserved it. all were terrible people and he would know, what with being able to read their thoughts. he might have rebelled against carlise — against what he had done to him and how he had unwillingly ripped his soul away, but. he couldn't bring himself to senselessly kill. )
Sleeping around was never one of those things. I suppose I was too angry— too disgusted by what I had become to really want any of that.
[the gentle silence is taken for what it is. Kol understands the need to think, to mull over the years that have passed and the lives lived, even if Edward is so very young still. He can't imagine how difficult it must be for the other who has to live with all the voices, even if he knows how to block most of them out.
Kol hummed and nodded, sitting back up to look seriously over at Edward, understanding completely.]
We all did dark things when we were turned. I can't even count the people I've killed, the gross debauchery I decided was lavish and fun that was truly debase and ... pure murder. I considered all humans less than, and merely food for so many years. I was bored, and lived like that until I found a reason to live otherwise. I understand what it's like to feel that grief and pain. I know what it's like to be disgusted by who you are, what you were made into.
[he lifts his fingers to the edge of Edward's face, and slides them along to his chin so that he can run a thumb over his lips.]
You don't have to do it alone though. You know that, right? There are others, like myself who understand.
( someone who's lived as long as kol has... the body count must be extraordinary. things edward himself can't even begin to comprehend. especially those earlier years, when you're a newborn vampire — when everything feels, smells, looks, and sounds different. when they taste different, to the point of driving one to near madness to fulfill that craving for a particular taste on the tongue and the disgust that comes with it all.
but edward can hear thoughts — hear the panic that floods their mind when they're dying there in front of him, in his grasp, and powerless to do anything. he's heard those thoughts — hasn't cared in the least. can anyone really know what that's like to live with? to know ones last thoughts in their short moments left of life?
a slow blink of eyes, aware of that thumb running along his lips, he lifts his gaze to look to kol, rather sullen. )
[Edward may have the ability to read minds, but if Kol wished he has the ability to capture a mind, and actually see inside it, vivid details. He can live as they die, and has had what he considered the pleasure of doing so. He can create fantasy worlds for them to live and die in as well. It's all about the thrall of blood, taking and sharing. There's a bold difference between their worlds and powers.
There's no doubt in Kol's eyes as he looks deep into Edwards. He sighs and takes a deep breath. Moving his hand up to the side of Edward's head, this is something he can do without blood. ]
May I share something with you? I don't want to overwhelm you, just let you see in part, what I understand in whole. .
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Late Jan, in the afternoon
Date: 2021-01-25 11:59 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-01-26 12:17 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-01-26 12:23 am (UTC)A lot.
You know that absurd pet show they're advertising all over the city?
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Date: 2021-01-26 12:41 am (UTC)Fuck.
Yeah, I heard of it. Why, what of it?
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Date: 2021-01-26 12:52 am (UTC)I'm on my way out to it.
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Date: 2021-01-26 01:16 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-01-26 01:51 am (UTC)They signed me up for it. I don't know, I just saw the run down a few minutes ago.
I'm scheduled for tonight.
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Date: 2021-01-26 02:07 am (UTC)I might have been able to get you out out of it.
Let me see what I can do.
I'll do my best.
I have to be careful, or they'll catch on.
I don't want him touching you like that.
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Date: 2021-01-26 02:44 am (UTC)What can you do?
They dropped this on me when I returned from work. He's never touched me before and... I...
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Date: 2021-01-26 02:55 am (UTC)We just don't talk a lot about serious stuff.
Okay, Okay.
I can... compel people if you don't tell anyone.
I will try to get you out, but if I can't...
Maybe I can put myself in his place.
It's not perfect, but at least it's not him?
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Date: 2021-01-26 03:59 am (UTC)You... We're almost there. There isn't enough time.
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Date: 2021-01-26 04:07 am (UTC)I have powers.
I'm already there.
I didn't bother with cars. I'm faster.
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Date: 2021-01-26 04:38 am (UTC)I'm going to raise this up with them afterwards.
But for now, do what you can.
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Date: 2021-01-26 04:54 am (UTC)I've got it switched.
I couldn't find anyone high enough to get you out of it completely.
Do you know what kinks we're supposed to perform on stage?
Or is it random.
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Date: 2021-01-26 05:26 am (UTC)None, if I had any say. Yet since I clearly did not, no. They did not inform me. Kol, I need to tell you, I haven't done many things. It was not as if I had leisure to go exploring obscure kinks on top of everything else already.
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Date: 2021-01-26 06:01 am (UTC)It’s okay, Lindsey. I can fix this too. I’ll put in something we’ve done before, but I’ll have to make it look more appealing as a dom.
I know we won’t be used to these roles, but I promise I will take care of you.
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Date: 2021-01-26 07:05 am (UTC)I'll see you soon.
hope this is okay!<3
Date: 2021-02-24 05:17 am (UTC)And before you assume I think you're the Beast, just wanna say both of them reminded me of you.
It's fine. I'm just slow and should log onto his journal more. ><
Date: 2021-03-02 08:10 pm (UTC)Me.
Kidding.
Maybe.
As long as I'm not the candlestick or any of the other silverware, clocks or teapots. Maybe I'm Gaston. People always do paint me as the asshole.
You know you're always going to be my beauty, right?
no rush!! <3 and feel free to ignore if you're not up for it :)
Date: 2021-03-03 01:35 am (UTC)Also, he doesn't exude the same big dick energy you do. ;)
Always? Even when I'm sick and resemble a bruised peach more than a human being?
@mindreader
Date: 2023-10-24 09:24 pm (UTC)[How could Kol know that Edward had been alive for so long and never been laid. It was one of the first debaucheries that Kol dug himself deep into after turning. Sex and blood, it all went hand in hand in his world. That and magic. He was a horrible person for a very long time, and then he was locked away by his brother.
He learned, he curbed his ways because he had to over time, and he still was far from perfect, but he was trying. Still, Edward puzzled him. Looking over at the extraordinarily handsome man, Kol lifted his brow. ]
Not paired up? You have to be in a pair to have really good sex, then. Can't you just go get yourself laid?
[Rolling over on his side to face Edward, Kol looks over at him and reaches out to lay a hand on his leg where it stretches in front of him. ]
Getting out on your own. That sounds pretty lonely, man.
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Date: 2023-10-24 10:24 pm (UTC)I did a lot of things when I became what I am. ( a monster. ) Hunted, stalked, killed.
( they all deserved it. all were terrible people and he would know, what with being able to read their thoughts. he might have rebelled against carlise — against what he had done to him and how he had unwillingly ripped his soul away, but. he couldn't bring himself to senselessly kill. )
Sleeping around was never one of those things. I suppose I was too angry— too disgusted by what I had become to really want any of that.
( a physical connection. an intimacy. )
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Date: 2023-10-24 10:39 pm (UTC)Kol hummed and nodded, sitting back up to look seriously over at Edward, understanding completely.]
We all did dark things when we were turned. I can't even count the people I've killed, the gross debauchery I decided was lavish and fun that was truly debase and ... pure murder. I considered all humans less than, and merely food for so many years. I was bored, and lived like that until I found a reason to live otherwise. I understand what it's like to feel that grief and pain. I know what it's like to be disgusted by who you are, what you were made into.
[he lifts his fingers to the edge of Edward's face, and slides them along to his chin so that he can run a thumb over his lips.]
You don't have to do it alone though. You know that, right? There are others, like myself who understand.
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Date: 2023-10-24 11:20 pm (UTC)but edward can hear thoughts — hear the panic that floods their mind when they're dying there in front of him, in his grasp, and powerless to do anything. he's heard those thoughts — hasn't cared in the least. can anyone really know what that's like to live with? to know ones last thoughts in their short moments left of life?
a slow blink of eyes, aware of that thumb running along his lips, he lifts his gaze to look to kol, rather sullen. )
Do you?
( understand. )
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Date: 2023-10-24 11:43 pm (UTC)There's no doubt in Kol's eyes as he looks deep into Edwards. He sighs and takes a deep breath. Moving his hand up to the side of Edward's head, this is something he can do without blood. ]
May I share something with you? I don't want to overwhelm you, just let you see in part, what I understand in whole. .